Friday, 11 January 2013

Day 198 - Feral Kids
Today a woman was walking down the street with her 6ish year old daughter behind her with her head bowed.  The Mother was storming on in front screaming her head off and her pushing a baby out in front of her. I was serving in the shop that I do readings in as the boss had popped out for a while and the two girls that I was serving heard the ruckus and ran to the window, the woman was so loud we could hear her on the other side of the road through the windows and the child looked so sad that the girls ran out of the shop to confront her.  She was screaming abuse at the girl and I couldn't figure out exactly what she was saying but it wasn't pleasant.

What are we doing? Looking at the link above about feral children, what kind of adults are we producing in this world.  We have absolutely no idea how our actions are imprinted onto a child and usually they are just a product of our upbringing, the sins of the Fathers just keep repeating.  For a moment I looked at the child and felt incredibly sorry and wanted to go and confront the woman, but then my thoughts turned to the woman screaming and crying with no concern for who heard her.  Was this a cry for help? was she at breaking point? no one knows what her life is like. Perhaps she is struggling on her own with no support from anyone.  But none the less we are breeding monsters and it continues on. 

What is it going to take to see that we need to teach the parents to be responsible adjusted human beings because I now realise/see and understand that we are having children that are programmed by their parents and they didn't/don't have a clue how the mind works and how they are products of their own pre programmed parents who  also didn't understand how the mind works. The best 'hope' we have is to zap everyone and wipe their memories and start again and this won't happen anytime soon. So we have to do it and start all over by taking responsibility for each and everyone of us as ourselves. This is a process and it is a long and laborious process and one that at times I think it would be easier to just give up and curl up in a ball and go to sleep and never wake up. But I can't accept and allow myself to do that. No way! My commitment is to myself and life and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind in thoughts of hopelessness and despondence and in moment consider giving up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into fear and imagine that the best hope that we have is to wipe everyone out and start again with a whole new batch of humans straight from the dimensions. I forgive myself that I haven't seen realised and understood that even if this were to happen the beings coming through would still have no memory of the life before and what is to be done to make a better more equal world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for the woman and child and to go off into my mind and imagine what life could be like for them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have back chat aimed at the woman yelling at her child and tell myself that I need to go and confront her and then I go into a conversation with myself on how it would go and then I imagine her lashing out and then I tell myself that there is no point in confronting her as she won't listen and it's not my business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to turn a blind eye to the abuse that is in this world and is brought about by a system that is inherently flawed and damaged and then within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realise and understand that the world is a reflection of us as flawed and damaged as programmes of abuse that continues on generation after generation until we say stop and reverse the damage that is worsening through self forgiveness and STOPPING now! 

When and as I see myself as making assumptions about others and how their lives could be as my imagination. I stop and I breathe and I bring myself here within and as myself and I remind myself that my responsibility is to walk process for myself so that if I do approach another with the intention to assist I am coming from a starting point that is based in self honesty and within that I am standing clear and stable within and as myself and within that I commit myself keep walking until nothing moves within and as me as emotion and feeling and then within this I am able to direct myself in stability and assist in pointing out where abuse exists because at this point I have walked it myself. 

I commit myself to continue breathing and slowing myself down and being part of the process of birthing a new world where eventually through self forgiveness and corrective application we are able to birth a new world equal and one.